Love in a Suitcase: Almost Said.

Friday, March 11, 2011

I don't judge you,
at least not as much as I judge myself.
What I do judge
is our poor taste in character.

Liars lose everything.
Though I sometimes feel sorry
that I somehow made sure of that.

If you asked me why then,
I would say fate.
If you asked me why now,
I would say I felt I didn't deserve better.

Just some of the things I wanted to say in a letter that wouldn't heal any scars.
Like the long one you sent that paralysed me.
I can't be sorry I didn't know but I am sorry I didn't know better.
But I couldn't let history repeat itself with somebody else as the many before me I already knew about,
I couldn't imagine letting somebody go through the emotional rape I so easily fell victim to
because nobody before me made it stop.
I don't hope for you to understand, I just hope for you to see
Neither of us could have done anything differently.
And that people hold their own pins to their destruction.
Pillowtalk Bolster

1 comment:

  1. You can't cure a narcissist or break his cycles of addiction... The narcissist is likely to perfect his techniques of courting and regard his sexual exploits as a form of art. He is very likely to expose this side of him - in great detail - to others, to an audience, expecting to win their approval and admiration as well. Because the narcissistic supply in his case resides in the element of conquest and (what he perceives to be) subordination - the narcissist is forced to move on and to switch and bewitch partners very often. When inevitably abandoned by his spouse, the narcissist is veritably shocked and hurt. Still, deep inside, he feels compelled to continue to pursue precisely the same path. Sex addiction is a manifestation of narcissism.
    You deserve better.


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