Its been 12 months I've been out of love with the 'love of my life'.
And I remember you and me used to spend the whole goddamned day in bed, Losing a whole year.
11 months working the bar at Raw to comfortably self support through college..
10 months since the psych pumped me up with so much meds i forgot my name.
Borderline personality what?
9 months since i stood at the doorsteps of the love box with the last of my things in a big blue suitcase.
8 months since i got my own studio that costs more than fresh grads will earn in Msia.
7 months since i turned the big 2-0 in Singapore and spent new years breaking down in Bali.
6 months on my RM800 a month Herbalife supplements and a size 22.5 waist again,
5 months of liberation from coffee slavery.
4 months out of a LDR* with a verbally abusive SGP Porsche race car driver,
3 months dating my very very protective best friend who's married to advertising. Which works 4 both of us.
2 months since last voice-hearing-color-changing-breakdown and dropping out of HELP ADP.
1 month back into modeling to pay next month shopping bills.
Its a year already?
And now I realize you never heard one goddamned word I ever said, Losing a whole year.
*Long distance relationship